Showing posts with label Portrait Painting. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Portrait Painting. Show all posts

Friday, March 15, 2019

Downtown by the Courthouse, Union, Missouri, US Highway 50

Downtown by the Courthouse, Union, Missouri, US Highway 50, 2019
acrylic on four shaped ragboard panels, artist-made frames, 6 9/16 x 42 1/8 x 1 15/16 inches


In the fall of 2014, I hit the road to cross the continent on U.S. Highway 50. Beginning in Ocean City, Maryland, I headed west in the direction of California. Traversing the midsection of America, embraced the states of Maryland, the District of Columbia, Virginia, West Virginia, Ohio, Indiana, Illinois, Missouri, Kansas, Colorado, Utah, Nevada and California. I intended to photograph the towns and cities along the way. In addition to the towns and cities, the plan was to capture the topography of natural places, the rivers, plains, mountain ranges, deserts, scrublands and forests that occupy the continental expanse between the waves of opposing oceans. The direction of my journey mirrored the growth and expansion of the United States. Although I never gave it that much thought, the age of many of communities reflected that history. I just wanted to chronicle the American scene from the vantage point of a single highway.

 

Not long into the trip, I began to understand that I wouldn’t be able to account for every single town along the way. Some communities didn’t exist on the map, while others were simply missed because I failed to see that I’d driven through them. Sometimes I turned around to correct the mistake, and sometimes I didn’t. Without the abstraction of a map, it is hard to determine what is or is not a town.

  

I never fully expected to document everything along the way. A full accounting of the towns swallowed by cities would have required getting on and off freeways trying to find the heart of particular places in the middle of smog infested sprawl. That level of commitment would have added a lot of time to the trip, consuming funds that I couldn’t afford to spend. Wandering through congested intersections trying to find community cores long lost to the circumference of cities, probably would have destroyed the feeling of freedom that comes from chasing down a horizon. Union, Missouri was the first town far enough removed from the stuff of St. Louis for me to want to resume photographing the trip. On another day, mood and atmosphere may have changed everything. As I recall, I was quite a way out before I recovered the mood of solitude attuned to the rhythm of the highway.

 

As I considered my journey, I noticed that I shot very few places as a single photograph. That should not be surprising. I long ago disregarded the concept of the composed. It seldom got at the nature of place. Photographing immense concrete canisters half cast in shadow can capture a stunning array of shades in rolling forms of architecture, but it doesn’t say anything about the surrounding town, or how those lofty grain elevators relate to the rumble of moving freight trains. The proportions that shaped rectangular framing when artists routinely painted portraits of aristocratic families are poorly matched to the task of embracing the geography of travel. What oncoming town can properly be defined without the horizon? How do you fit the tree lined streets that profile an interlocking sky of protruding rooftops, power-lines, steeples, and the metallic gleam of a solitary water tower into a space designed to house a family portrait?

The history of Western art didn’t have much of anything to say about the landscape in the beginning. Painting was primarily used to depict mythology, Biblical scenes, and aristocracy. The landscape was rarely subject matter in and of itself. When it did appear, it was usually part of a larger story, like the Holy Family’s flight into Egypt. Since Biblical and mythological events could not be observed, the participants and scenery had to be imagined. Models standing in for gods and heroic figures created staging. Within that space, it was natural enough to make the leading man or woman the center of attention. By trying to drive the viewer’s gaze to the main character through devices such as perspective and lighting, a focal point was born and composition became an important part of making art.

 

As my mind rummages through images from art history, what I discover are configurations of leading figures and secondary cast members. Composition was designed with people in mind. Hierarchy, the concept of thinking that some people are more important than others became a way of portraying everything around us. Flowers arrangements involving bottles, pots and saucers, shouldn’t have a need for one of the containers to stand out on the table. Dominance in a painting of fresh cut flowers has nothing to do with seeing. Being human, our egocentric thoughts consume our perspective. It doesn’t matter where we’re looking, the rules remain the same. We treat scenery as though it had human consciousness. Barn, horse and tree are crammed into a compositional huddle that resembles yet another family snapshot. A concrete silo is framed as though it would know how to pose for a portrait. What gets lost in painting a mountain range is that its granite mass sat upon the plain long before portraits were ever conceived of Jesus or a king. Earth and sky and everything in between should not be confined to the interior dimensions that were historically used for painting people. The great outdoors is defined by atmospheric space, where distance is the measurement of shades shifting to the lackluster blue of a warped horizon. For those attuned to the highway, the profile of sites resides within an overwhelming sense of atmosphere. What I am trying to say is that the subject matter of any vista is always space. The thing that makes a landscape real is the absence of a stage. The sky overrides the notion of any man-made thing being equivalent to a king. You may be thrilled by highlights on a silo, but the thing that dominants all other things is an atmospheric weight that can’t be defined by a pose or profile. How can you encompass the brilliance of sunlight or shepherd the will of the wind? Human thoughts of dominance have very little to do with the buoyancy of a blue horizon. The embrace of landscape is the manifestation of space.

 

In my time at college, there was never any history given for the origins of composition. No one tried to explain why a focal point should apply to rudiments of a horizon. It was simply understood that painting required designing. Straight up observation was never enough. The experience of everyday seeing couldn’t be conveyed through painting. The sight of turned up earth and silo was not enough to make a painting great. That kind of experience couldn’t be understood as being any good without the concept of dominance being brought into the picture. If you think scenery needs to be tweaked or rearranged for it to be compelling, I hesitate to say that’s entirely wrong. I’ve never been interested in depicting people or painting items placed on a table. The life I enjoy has been about the highway. The trill of weekend drives inspired me to take up painting when I was a child. My perspective comes from a need to embrace the depth of perception seen while gazing out at a horizon. That need could be just as flawed as the compositional thinking that I believe to be so misleading. My view could be derived from shyness. I don’t like crowds. I seem to need a lot of space to feel at ease. Because of that fact, I may not be drawn to patterns that mirror the structure of social events. Still, my human intuition is probably closer to the makeup of nature because it doesn’t require the artist to decide what part of the scenery is supremely meaningful. What I see is exactly as it should be. I can’t imagine making any of it better. In that respect, I could be religious. I feel much smaller than the things I try to describe. Sky as sky cannot be shaped into anything greater by adulations of paint.

 

I’ve taken enough photographs to know, that two consecutive shots of any place provide enough perspective to establish a sense of direction. Within that framing, you’ll probably find something that resembles a composition. That amount of space embraces something that could be called delineation. Just like when trying to draw attention to the countenance of a king, there is a pull which does the same kind of thing. The expanse of consecutive snapshots is filled with a perspective that can’t be denied, drawing the viewer into the scenery. The difference being that the viewer gets to choose what destination he or she is drawn to. Painting is based on observation. The choice to delineate or compose is a matter of perspective. A composition tries to make it plain, that a specific person or thing is the most crucial part of a painting. Delineation doesn’t comprehend individual significance. Because it knows everything is connected, its devotion of focus extends everywhere. In composition, the delivery of space happens on a stage. That might be fine for a literary production or family snapshot, but it doesn’t begin to comprehend what it means to be outside. Composition comes with the limitations of a box. It can’t hold very much. That rationing shapes what we select to see. The isolation of prominent sites is forced upon us. Snapshots taken on vacation seldom do the trick. The singularity of a mountain or tower can’t begin to tap into the essence of memory, because that isn’t what we see standing where the latitude of sight bleeds into breadth of yawning atmosphere. Compositional framing can’t fully embrace the meaning of place, because it tries to apply the standards of indoor habitat to an environment truly beyond those dimensions.

 

If two snapshots are enough to establish some kind of connection, why do so many of my paintings rely on a span of three or more photographs? I hadn’t thought about it before. But on this trip, I began to realize that what I sought for so many years was something greater than the delineation of space. Although the combination of two snapshots is similar to composition, I seem to follow the advancing camera until it has moved through enough frames to engage a visual position. That doesn’t mean that the description of a place should be thought of as fixed or definitive. Within the range of any location, there are limitless stories to tell. When the advancing camera stops, it just means that I think I’ve captured enough to justify suspension. Nothing in that says this is it. There could be more. There could be so much more. It just signifies that I hit the first frame that secures the character of place.

 

In embracing the landscape, I ended up chasing something that could be called narrative. My childhood imagination always recited a dialog of sites on the way to any horizon. That innate nature survived to thrive into adulthood. I see a parking lot with its shops and laundry mat as a place of exploration. Having that kind of reaction, every site can’t help but feel like it should be a feature piece dedicated to the thrill of living. Perhaps what I do could be described as a kind of journalism. There is a story to tell, but the facts matter. A couple of snapshots may pinpoint a place, but the word on the street calls for a broader perspective.


The two center panels depict the courthouse. Any two consecutive images taken
with a camera, will feel quite a bit like a composition. 

In my painting of Union, Missouri, the two center panels depict the courthouse. The view in and of itself could be complete. There is enough perspective to determine that the courthouse is part of a location. Without that added space, the building would be just another architectural headshot, a postcard kind of thing without the heft of gravity pulling everything together. Composition seldom has enough perspective to convey navigation and place. If those components are missing, it is difficult to see the terrain that makes up mountain, town or valley. And without terrain, can a landscape painting really be aligned with the land it was intended to describe?

 

Standing near the Oak intersection of Locust Street, I shot beyond the courthouse. That extension enables the viewer to be like a pedestrian. If you can visually move around, frozen moments begin to melt away into a tale of exploration. Exploration requires time, and with that time, painting can become a living thing. It can describe blue sky, ornamental trees, a courthouse surrounded by street lamp banners, a neon sign, fluorescent lights, a shadowed wall, a window encased display of a wedding dress, and the indication of fall where changing leaves succumb to the grip of October. Seeing is the story of being there. It’s often been said, that a picture paints a thousand words. If that’s true, and I believe it is, most of the words are going to be nouns and adjectives. Although painting can’t explain, it’s great at illustration.

 

I hesitate to say that my painting could be narrative. Because the idea behind narrative painting troubles me, I’ve got some explaining to do. The category as defined is deceptive. It leads people to think that a certain kind of painting has the capacity to explain the action of unknown events. That’s what storytelling does and stories can’t be told without language. Perhaps, narrative painting should be defined as the depiction of an incident so widely known that it wouldn’t need a picture to visualize it. A canvas of the Last Supper may make a great painting, but it doesn’t reveal anything that wasn’t already known. The story it tells was already in the head of the person seeing it. I know I’m stating the obvious, but the statement should make it plain that all painting is the same. It can depict, but it can’t carry on a conversation. A painting of an apple can say apple, because the viewer already knows what an apple is. Without prior knowledge, the Last Supper is just a painting of a dinner party. No amount of paint could ever betray the middle figure as Jesus. Just like with the example of the apple, the information was already known.

 

Now that the Last Supper has been exposed as being basically the same as the Apple, we can go on to say that although painting can’t do storytelling, it has the capacity to recite the details of sight, which words simply cannot handle. When writing about sky, the concept is so ethereal that the only the word that can really describe sky is sky. As an atmospheric noun, there are never enough adjectives to color in transitions of blue. The nouns and adjectives of routine seeing are so numerous that if they were all written down to describe a place, the ability to envision it would be consumed by chaos. Language simply cannot deliver all the details my painting provides and remain unbroken. Any attempt would require inventory lists, itemizing details and relationships which could never be arranged in a sequence that could be read from any starting point, in any direction, and be completely understood in an instant. That is the domain of paint. When depicted as imagery, nouns and adjectives are not restricted by the linear constraints of language.

 

Painting can easily relay the information of sight. In that respect, it exceeds language. But it can’t examine love, fashion a plot, or casually say, I think it’s going to rain tomorrow. So in what respect could my painting offer more than a description? A lot of it has to do with the span of perspective. By going beyond parameters of composition, the viewer gets to choose how to investigate the setting. With that choice, the viewer stops being a bystander. Because Union, Missouri is presented in rolling sequence, the navigation of place happens naturally. In the concrete details of the tree lined streets, there is a spirit of recognition. It is an inventory list of routine details, which in many cases the viewer didn’t realize had any clout. Responding to frozen moments inhibits reaction time long enough to see beyond banality. It may be a scene that the viewer wouldn’t normally like, but being anywhere comes with a collection of memories. In the depiction of a particular place, it is the act of navigation that grabs the imagination. When vision is painted as the tool that it really is, it can’t help but fuel connections. Getting anywhere is dependent upon information that painting frequently excludes. By profiling sight over the composed focus of isolation, scenery begins to tell a story. I have no idea what the story will convey. But within the rudiments of a small town intersection, there are impressions that ignite the recognition of having seen this kind of place before. Because I’ve done nothing to influence your perspective, the connections you see will be entirely your own. In my imagination, as far back as I can remember, I was a travel guide and explorer. When I realized that nearly everything I saw went well beyond the window of composition, I changed the way I painted. Openness without focus was so much closer to the navigation of getting around, that many could feel a connection to forlorn parking lots. As a kind of travel guide, I see no distinction between barnyards and national parks. I paint moments that everyone knows. By painting the routine passage of time, I capture the beauty of what it means to see. Living can be hectic. Seeing another bleached out street can feel mundane. Attending church next to an ailing shopping center probably doesn’t do much to inspire, but what does that have to do with vision? You’re alive! The sky is still the sky. Seeing is such a gift that I can’t begin to comprehend banality even in a desolate parking lot. With that enthusiasm, I tap into the bare bones of living. In going for the moment, any moment, there is a commonality we share, and it is that commonality that reads as narrative.

     

     

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Thoughts on Dallas and Landscape Painting: An All Day Excursion of Richardson Heights Shopping Center



End of the Day at the North End of the Richardson Heights Shopping Center...
Left panel detail
mixed media diorama
11 7/8 x 63 3/4 x 3 3/4 inches
1987
 One of the joys of not having to rely on composition is that the entire world is open to you.  The world abounds in the local.  The exhilaration of travel can be had by riding a bike or strolling down an alleyway.  A walk across a parking lot can fill with a sense wonder. The peeling paint of a rusted dumpster may be a bit of a kick, a heart rising skip, the arrested freshness that comes with every new encounter.  With this state of mind, every day, every time of day, every atmospheric condition is splendid.  Life is even bright in stormy weather when design no longer denies a child eye view of everything as treasure.  A vacant lot becomes a place of nature.  Even blacktop and shiny metal cars beam radiantly.  Stepping towards the theatre, life happens in the wind.  Trees and shrubs throw off pollen dust to the flutter and buss of flying insects.  Car doors open and close in moments of lowly grandeur.

End of the Day... full two panel view
 
I once spent an entire day observing the habits of Richardson Heights Shopping Center.  I arrived before dawn, and left just after dusk.  It was Sunday.  There wasn’t much going on.  The Texas Blue Laws were still enforced.  Given the current political conditions of the state, the past could easily seem like a golden age of liberalism.  Anyway, the idea was to do an entire exhibition based on a single day in a parking lot.  I know that’s taking the idea of local to the extreme, but I was confident there was more than enough to see to make for a very exciting show.  Although I didn’t go that route, I easily could have, and some very nice dioramas came from the all-day excursion around the grounds of the shopping center.

The tools of the trade didn’t include pencils, sketch pads, canvas or paint.  The engagement with any particular place is too enjoyable to be distracted by the practice of painting.  I came to see and feel the life of a specific place in my neighborhood.  To help with that endeavor, I had a camera and a notebook.  I brought a folding chair to sit in and a tape recorder to capture sound.  Most of the noise was traffic.  The ebb and flow was the aggravated ease of a lazy summer Sunday.  The recorder also captured a chirping scurry of birds as dawn gave way to shape and shadow.  Early in the morning, a Corvette pulled into the north end of the shopping center.  The car door opened and a policeman stepped out.  Within no time at all, I understood what was happening.  The shopping center filled in with cars.   He was a crossing guard for those going to church.  There is no way to explain this if you have not lived in Dallas.  Although most people don’t seem that pious during the week, when Sunday comes around church overtakes state, and traffic patterns are managed to meet the needs of church going people.  When church was over, the parking lot quickly emptied out.  I wandered around taking pictures.  I noted business names, inspected litter and paid some attention to the activity of ants.  When you have all day, you have all kinds of time for long drawn out yawns and internal bouts of fascination.  Both modes of being seem to be completely compatible.  I noticed meandering cracks.  I stumbled on bits of scattered gravel no longer the embedded compression of blacktop conglomerate.  Faded paint, an exquisitely eroded layer of cap rock divided gray from gray.  The powerful glare of an ever present sun was everywhere.  In pale gray heat, little puffy clouds followed a shadowy path of quiet annihilation.

Around noon, cars crowded in around Wyatt’s cafeteria.  Dining out on Sundays also seemed to be an eventful part of going to church.  Dallas was the churchiest place I’d ever seen, and I grew up in Utah.  Perhaps, when religion is practiced that casually, there isn’t any cost to looking handsome or pretty.  You simply change clothes and persona.  Anyway, the one thing parking lots seem to have in common is an inability to encourage walking.  I once worked a couple of doors down from a fitness center.  Women drove around and around looking for the perfect spot.  God forbid if hips should have to walk.  I wonder if any of them stopped to consider how ridiculous it was to labor that hard to avoid exercise while trying to exercise.  Steps don’t seem to count for much unless they include dues, mirrors, and a cold interior of fitness machines.

Over the years, I’ve heard people say that people are the hardest things to paint.  Naturally as a landscape painter, I don’t much care for the idea.  The statement insinuates that trees are not as hard to paint as faces, and further proclaims that an apple, napkin and hat, and a cold beer stand in lower tiers of difficulty.  I am certain that is not in fact a fact.  Almost any mountain slope is far more varied than any variation in the human face.  The noted difficulty comes from a consciousness that places the human race as the crown of creation.  We spend all our time thinking of ourselves.  Even in societies where a reverence for nature was more prevalent, that reverence was still centered on the inhabitants of man.  With that mindset, nothing else has ever received equal time or consideration.  The standard for mountains has never even matched that of kitchen utensils.  Anyone can paint a mountain.  It’s not hard to see why we would have environmental problems.  We only see ourselves.  As a result, landscape painting has never received true scrutiny.  It is perfectly fine for a mountain to be nothing more than a few gray lines on a horizon.  Very few deeply care about nature.  You can tell that just by the way they drive.  A highway is nothing more than a forgettable stretch between destinations.   Since a person is not a tree, a cloud, or a sage covered bluff, there is no need to heed the particularity of how cloud movements continuously reconfigure cloud formations.  Many painters simply make the stuff up and never really seem notice that the grey underbelly of a cloud isn’t really any darker than the blue sky that surrounds it.  The same kind of laxness won’t fly when considering the profile and tone of a human face.  Try making one up.  You won’t get away with it.  That’s why I have a bit of a problem with the outdoor crowd.  They just paint to feel artistically free.  Painting outside has nothing to do with understanding the subtlety of light.  I think it’s time to put the people thing in perspective.  John Singer Sargent would never have had the success he had if he had plein aired the privileged faces of the Gilded Age.


End of the Day... left panel view
 
As evening began to settle in, my day of observation came to a close.  Although short lived, the pastel atmosphere began to relinquish heat.  After initial cooling, the air seemed to warm up again.  I know that’s probably not the case.  The sensation was most likely tied to increased humidity.  The sun had set.  It was safe for trees to begin to release some of the moisture that had been stored during the heat of the day.  The sound of crickets could not yet compete with cicadas, the noisy creatures of heat that pass the day away in marked intervals of intensity.  Deciduous trees leaned more and more toward evergreen.  Lavender meandered twilight across the sky.  Street lamps intensified the weight of darkness.  Starlight was nothing more than a glimmer of major constellations and possibly a passing satellite.   I snapped a few finals shots as evening settled in.  I loaded my stuff into the truck glad to call it a day, and drove home to my apartment on the other side of Central Expressway.




End of the Day... right panel view

Sunday, January 19, 2014

William Vaughn Howard and a New Framework for Painting


William Vaughn Howard
Title Unknown
acrylic, pastel and graphite
3 5/8 x 22 1/2 inches
The painting above was given to me by my painting professor William Vaughn Howard.  I studied with him as an undergraduate at the University of Nevada, Reno in the early 80’s.  He spent the summers in Greece on the Island of Paros; I bet that is where this was painted.  Although small, it has the structure I want to discuss.   

Detail of the left end
In 1986 I flew back to Reno from Dallas to see what turned out to be Bill’s last show.  What I saw was a group of paintings, the likes of which I had never seen before.  As I recall, 18 inches of verticality rolled out across the walls for another 12 feet.  The 1 to 8 ratio was hard to fathom.  The minor extremity of a 1 to 2 ratio troubled me.  I never knew how to handle the extra space.  The structures were shifting peripheries.  The sweeps eliminated the ability to focus on any particular part of a painting.  Moving through shifting views seemed to be the point of the exercise.  Eyesight could not help but move and vision became a kind of travel.  The absence of a focal point was not a loss.  Instead of leaving, I found myself wanting to resume the sweep of freedom that had carried me away.

Detail of the middle


Although fascinated by the arcs, I couldn’t understand how they came to be.  A rectangle encourages rectangular thinking especially when working abstractly.  When there are no observable curves that you are trying to fit within a space, the action of brushstrokes and splatters happens with an awareness of the outside edge of the stretcher.  It is hard to work a space that is not a conventional rectangle.  When the picture plane is extended, it is visually difficult to stay away from the middle.  This is not a matter of mathematics, but rather one of perception.  Almost any division seems to dangerously align with the middling core of the middle.  The wider the span, the more significant the middle becomes.  Within elongated space, the practicality of a two thirds rule applied to the horizon is exceedingly useless.  How do you compose in any meaningful way covering all that space without becoming lost?

Detail of the right end


When I visited Bill’s studio, he showed me photographs taken in panoramic fashion.  The photographs represented continuous views of coastline running into sea.  I failed to see the significance.  I wondered why align so many photographs together.  I found it a bit confusing.   He died not long after I was back in Dallas.  Within a few months of that visit, I was photographing in the same manner.  Nothing had ever been so exciting.  My neighborhood came alive.  And as I overlapped photographs on the apartment floor, I began to understand the origins of those wonderful waves and how they signaled a need for extremely long paintings.  The arcs are natural to panoramas.  They are the photographic records of a camera turning to embrace the surroundings.  Although, Bill is no longer here to confirm the nature of his compositional structures, it seems plausible that he saw a continuum in photographic prints that were then abstracted onto expansive canvases.

The new views quickly expanded the latitude and capacity of my dioramas.  Once the lay of the land extends beyond the parameters of a single snapshot, landmarks are no longer limited to highway milestones, but include the faded veneers of mom and pop shops along pock ravaged access roads.  There is a realization that composition is comprised of two or more frames of the view finder.  Or put another way, there is no composition to find because the composed is all around.  Point the camera here, there, or anywhere and the added space embraces continuum.  The confines of a standard viewfinder is alien to the everyday navigation of moving around.  Composition is about placement.  Although often thought of as the arrangement of outside objects, there is no need to define or compose when information positions you within your surroundings.  I quickly found this to be true.  When I composed prominent sites, frequently people didn’t know where they were because traditional compositions sever everyday relationships.  When I started painting the insignificant bits of habitation, I wound up painting locations that people instinctively knew much to their surprise.

I believe those last paintings tackled a new kind of vision.  Although the terrain of landscape had been a staple of abstraction, it never contained the breadth of time seen along a highway.  The new was housed within traditional strictures.  Canvasses had the proportions of portrait painting.  Ratios appropriate for the interior life of habitation may not be fitting for the great outdoors.  There was no vista, or distance sprawling out in sunshine, a gleaming rise of stubble gray, pasture, baled developments replacing hay, the magnetic skip of high tensioned power lines, the blue cast slant of earthen furrows, the widespread lisp of horizon outside Deming, New Mexico, the spotted dots of juniper and mesquite tabled between lowly mesas, tin, a windmill that no longer spins, freight on rails, churning smoke, and the elm sheltered trash that marks significant bits of history along an open highway.  The makings of a time horizon that I’ve grown to know as place came into play with the paintings of William Vaughn Howard. 

Information for the images below
City of Richardson from Central Expressway and
Spring Valley Rd. on the Morning of July 4th, 1987
mixed media diorama
8 3/8 x 124 x 3 7/8 inches
 





Thursday, December 12, 2013

CLIFF’S GAS DIESEL, Holly, Colorado; U.S. Highway 50

CLIFF'S GAS DIESEL, Holly, Colorado; U.S. Highway 50
acrylic
8 3/8 x 26 x 4 inches

Holly, Colorado was the last town before crossing over into Kansas on east bound U.S. Highway 50.  The plan was to a camp north of Stockton, Kansas so I could drive with sunrise back into Colorado.  Exhausted, I stopped at a closed filling station to examine a map.  Turning around, I searched for a road I failed to spot.  At that hour, the highway hosted only intermittent trucks.  In an area of fog I saw the turn off.  The methane fog filled with dust driving in a land of feedlots.  With each and every turn I wondered if I was getting any closer.  The road came to a tee.  On the left, there was a hollow of trees.  A lane straight ahead led to a house and other structures that hovered around a small porch light.  I turned right.  Headlights highlighted insect collisions when a sense of destiny began to settle in.  Continued travel on gravel only led deeper into starlit fields with a moon that would soon slip behind the horizon. 

It was nice to be on the highway heading back to a rest area I past just before leaving Colorado.  Although the plan was to camp, sleeping in the car was not impossible.  By folding the backseats forward, the trunk could accommodate 8 foot lengths of molding, it seemed like a sleeping bag could also fit into that space.  With part of the bag encased in the hollow of the trunk, getting in was a bit tricky.  Climbing through one of the back doors, I slid into the sleeping bag.  With my feet in the trunk, I embraced starlight from the calm of my pillow.  Although more comfortable, the car provided a private viewing of the nighttime sky that a tent denies.  It was nice to no longer be moving.  I settled in listening to the sound of crickets and other travelers pulling in.  With a sweep of idle headlights, car doors opened and closed.  Restrained voices trailed off; time acquired the weight of late arrival.
 
CLIFF'S GAS DIESEL, Holly, Colorado; U.S. Highway 50 (Left Side Detail)

I arrived by morning light.  The main street was off the highway as many main streets are out on the open plains.  Back on the highway, CLIFF’S GAS DIESEL was surrounded by piles of tires.  It was hard to tell exactly what Cliff did.  Outdated pumps stood in front of a rundown building, yet his business seemed to carry on.  I liked the station’s architecture.  It reminded me of a time when I enjoyed the highway as a child.  To say I like something implies a preference for the subjects I select.
While that may be true, it doesn’t happen in the ways you might expect.  I like everything.  Every place has moments, and one of those moments was a moment when I happened to be somewhere.  That may sound egocentric, but the only moment I know is the one I’m living in.  I realize dawn has come to Holly many times before, and that morning is an ordinary affair, but it is that common occurrence that seems to be so rare.  Instead of trying to create or capture the spectacular, I am thoroughly invested in minor events.  And since life is always happening, it doesn’t matter whether I am standing by a pile of tires or overlooking a vale of the Great Basin.  The same light that revels in sedimentary uplift sparkles in bits of broken glass and the asphalt patina flash that skips past fast food carcass discards along an open highway.  Feel the exhilaration in a swirl of rough and dusty leaves kicking up ruts and sailing across puddles permanently plaguing the bend of an alleyway. 


CLIFF'S GAS DIESEL, Holly, Colorado; U.S. Highway 50 (Right Side Detail)


With the filling station withstanding the ravages of time, I thought it might be nice to capture the historic nature of the place.  Of course, that could easily be achieved by using color.  Although color generally belongs to the realm of painting, I thought I would paint the station in shades associated with photography.  And although we see in color, thoughts of yesterday can be layered in shades of gray.  That is not to say that memory is colorless.  It is just that the paper trail of the past includes books, newspapers and magazines printed in black and white.  Photography dated parents and grandparents while still young in pallid shades of gray.  In that mix fell sepia prints.  Painting in shades of photography plays into a placement of frames on a desk, mantle or shelf.  Though not portraiture, landscapes have a capacity to spark hidden bits of consciousness.  Simple sights or sounds may remind us of other times and places.  Nostalgia is a riddle of the familiar.  The frame is reminiscent of snapshots, the evidence of a planned vacation, except no happy couple stands in front of an exquisite destination.  It is the domain of place, any place that is so compelling.  Another day arises on a highway in the town of Holly, Colorado.  As dilapidated as the filling station seems to be, CLIFF’S GAS DIESEL is still in business.  I could hear work  going on in the garage as I got into the car ready to hit the highway.